Hyposexual activity - voluntary or non?

I always hesitate to write about my sex life in here for two reasons. First, there are people who read this that I don't want reading about it (ie, little brothers and ex-boyfriends). Second, there are people who read this that know me and my boyfriend very well and they probably don't want to hear about it. But hell, I've met the Lad and Tara's escapades have never bothered me. So here goes.

People always say that when you take Abnormal Psychology that you will diagnose yourself with half the psychological problems that you learn about. Very few people are actually like my professor, who is indeed OCD, anal, and slightly homocidal. I've actually come up with two personal diagnoses:

First (and this is really hard to finally say outloud - I've only mentioned it to two people in my entire life), I am chronically depressed. Basically that means that I don't have major depressive episodes, but more of a low-level consistant dysthymia. My life gets in a cyclic pattern where I am okay for a few weeks (even exceedingly bouncy) and then there are some really low weeks. I cry a lot (sometimes for no reason at all) and am not motivated to do much of anything. My closest friends have seen these patterns, but who knows what anyone really thinks about them.

Secondly, onto the sexy part lol. My sex drive is just kaput. I've been with my boyfriend for almost eight months now, and for the last month or so, I haven't been giving it up. For some reason, I've lost that drive recently. I started writing this, thinking it was my own fault - that I've messed with my own head in a way to get me disinterested in sleeping with my boyfriend. But, actually, by writing out what my first problem is, it could be the reason for my second. When my emotions get in a slump, my body does too. I mean, I guess that makes some sense. In my silly head it does.

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A lot of girls say that they hate other girls, and those are the ones that tend to be my friends. While we all have our moments, I prefer to befriend myself with those lovely ladies who admit and embrace that (sometimes) girls are just plain, old bitches.

Now, granted, like I said, we ALL have our moments. But I've noticed in my wise 21 years that the girls who recognize this fact are actually much nicer than those who don't. All of my close friends have come to terms with this and I love them oodles. But there are so many that haven't, and it's such a pain in my ass.

Let's take this morning for example. I saw JJ's sister this morning when I went shopping (Yes, at 5am on Black Friday). She works in a store with my friend "the Greatest's" girlfriend. Since I was shopping with the Greatest, we went to go visit her - the poor girl had to open at 6am, augh. Anyway, I gave my friend his time with his girlfriend and went to say hi to JJ's sister. And, HEY guess what? It was because I'm a nice person. Yes, I genuinely do like you as a person. No, I was not only nice to you for two years because I was doing your brother. And, FYI, even as years went by that JJ and I were apart, I defended you to your boyfriend's exgirlfriend, who had some not-so-nice thing to say (obviously out of jealousy) about you. That's just me.

(I'm saying "you," but it's not like she even knows this exists, so it's just a vent.)

So, don't go trying to start trouble between me and my friend's girlfriend (the one she works with). Seriously. As soon as we left the store, she went and twisted some of my words to make me look like a bitch in front of my friend's girlfriend. Not cool.

I eff'n hate Staten Island.

Should I stay or should I go

Taurus: No more acting too nice! You've just about had it with this situation, and you're going to speak your mind. It takes a lot to make you indignant, but when something does -- everybody had better watch out!

I am really getting sick and tired of my job. I've bitched about the situation so so much that I really don't even have the energy to go on a rampage about it anymore. But, this horoscope is right - I've had it. The new rumor goping around is that they offered the RD position to the RA that is a piece of shit and I am furious. No, I didn't still want to work as an RD at Fordham, but this is just rediculous. He breaks plenty of rules and I can't even say anything about it because then I'm "not a team player." Yet, he can be a tattle-tale and he's a hero.

He had better be like doing Amy, because this is redic.

Who on earth comes up with these random questions?

is there anything pink within 10 ft. of you? index cards, printout of my schedule, and a keychain

are you wearing socks right now? nope

what was the last thing you had to drink? OJ

last persons house you were in? mine...before mine, prob tara's

who is the last person you sent a message to on myspace? someone whose profile was deleted

do you have a tan? do i look like a staten island girl? lol

where is your dad right now? at work

what was the last thing you said? thank you

where is your mom right now? probably at home

do you have a roommate? no

do you have any bad habits? i still bite my nails

do you know anyone name Lori? my mommy!!!!! the correct spelling too

what color is your moms hair? haha, brown with blonde hilights

what happened to you in 1993? i was eight - in third grade, i broke my arm

has your luggage ever gotten lost? no, knock on wood

biggest annoyance in your life right this minute - it's cold

are you allergic to anything? school, and dust

what is one thing you miss about your past? my imagination

do you ever get flu shots? every year

favorite shoes that you wear all the time? two words - flip flop

if you were a crayon, what colour would you be? duh purple

what does the room you're in look like? it's my bedroom - it's mostly purple with a big bed and van gogh pics on the wall and pictures of my friends everywhere

what is the weirdest thing about your parents? my mom thinks it's ok to tell me about her sex life

how many keys are on your keychain? 4 - home, apartment, mike's and office

have you ever pranked call 911? no

have you ever been walked in on while you were naked? yes, by genevieve

have you ever made a snow angel? yes

rock, paper or scissors? FIRE

what would you rather have: a housekeeper, a cook or a chauffeur? chauffeur

last thing you got in the mail? vicky's!